Storyteller Mar Qaroll: Weaving Words, Weaving Worlds

Updated September 28, 2025

Awkward, disabled, and mentally ill storyteller and worldbuilder of 20+ years who weaves words and worlds.He/Him • LVL 33 • 0 HP

Welcome, humans. I am...

...a misanthropic bastard who constantly causes people's blood pressure to rise. Ban me, block me; it'll only fuel my spite to continue doing what I did that pissed you off....a lover of music, manga, silver trinkets, the color black, savory pairings, unique books, and the twisted things that come out of my head....the creator of a conworld galaxy called Paneidos, which I've been working on for over fifteen years. It's nothing worth mentioning......furthermore in the process of developing an indie company for my art and stories called Candelabræm! It will house all the stories within Paneidos.

Things to Know™

I am an unapologetic proshipper.
I legitimately don't care what you think.
Why yes, I am brimming with snark.

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About Me

'Lo, ev'ryone, and welcome to my site! I am Mar Qaroll, a dark-clad transmasculine metalhead, a storyteller and worldbuilder of over twenty years, and the creative founder of the community, endeavor, and future indie business, Candelabræm! I have an unshakable vow to be faithful to myself which has led me away from several old beliefs, including my old religion of Islam. I am interested in building a community of like-minded individuals who dare to be true to themselves, create amazing stories while doing it, and wholeheartedly support one another.Join me on my journey to fulfilling my dream of emotional and spiritual independence through my projects, stories, worlds, FTM transition, and rootwork!I am a dark-clad (i.e. I wear black all the time) transmasculine metalhead who lives off the very concept and art of telling stories as authentically as possible.I am merely a storyteller who yearns to share his work and universe with others. Everything I know is through videos, books, and critiques. My dream is to have a small community of people who enjoy my stories and worlds even a quarter as much as I do. To that end, I have started uploading my stories to the internet. I eventually hope to self-publish in the future, but my internet publishing is mainly to create a community.I specifically write adult stories in a massive conworld called Paneidos. It is a self-aware setting that includes detailed lore that spans over thirteen real-world years. I am a firm believer in realism and immersion in stories. Limiting oneself from adding elements and themes just because of societal taboos doesn't make any sense to me. I am ready to defend my stance, and I have, even if this stance gets me into "trouble".And I assure you. It has.Thirty-three years ago, I was born to a Southern father and a Yankee mother. Both are devout Muslims (who to this day still try to get me to "return to the faith"), and I was raised as a Muslim girl for 20 years. In my 20th year, I formally left Islam for the sake of my mental health and because I couldn't continue living a lie.Today, I call myself a deviant, storyteller, worldbuilder, and weaver of words and worlds. As I've put pen to paper before I could fully form sentences, I am a lifelong writer and creator of diverse, original worlds and stories that cater to adults.I am currently finishing the second novel in my Human Shed Skin duology and working on the Kickstarter for my indie endeavor, Candelabræm! I hope to create it in about 10 years as of 2025. When I'm not writing, I'm sleeping, working on websites, and struggling to stay alive.

Last blog entries

Blaugust 2025: About the Resident Weirdo...

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'Lo, ev'ryone! As a blogger of over fifteen years, well. It's been a long time since I joined a blogging event! Not since 2012's BatFit, I think...and that's—Well. Let's not talk about that utter failure....

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Mid-2025: Maybe I'm a webnovelist?

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'Lo, ev'ryone. It is just almost exactly seven months into 2025 and...I am trying something old, something new. I've been on Patreon for several years, at least three, and every attempt to make it successful...

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FAQ

Why do you call yourself a "pervert"?

Because, according to "modern" society, that's exactly what I am. Doesn't matter which facet of "modern" society it is—though almost specifically on the Western and Abrahamic side of things which is where I'm most familiar.By "modern" I mean in the past 200 years or so. 👌🏾

What makes you a "pervert"?

Too many reasons, all somewhat based on "logic". While, understandably, many queer people actively avoid the term "pervert" or "deviant" to describe themself in any capacity due to historical stereotypes saying queer people are perverted, I take the term and own it, in a way. I am a pervert and in more ways than that. Remember this is just for me.~~Also, If I had been born in another time or world, I'd call myself a fudanshi or, as we call it more commonly today, a shipper of m/m, which is my favorite romantic or sexual pairing...ever.~~There's also the fact that I write dark, taboo subjects with a dead dove mentality. Someone may call me a "pervert" for that—or worse. I've been called worse, and that's abhorrent, but it comes with the territory.At the end of the day, it all comes down to writing and being my authentic self. Nothing more to say, nothing more to add. Anything else is your problem or projection on your part.

Okay, but why "Sipping Pervert"?

I drink a lot of water, juice, and tea. ☕ I can be seen drinking all the time and even prefer drinking more than eating.

What's with the W's?

W1, W2, W3, W4, WW4, W5? You've probably seen these abbreviations and noticed them around my main sites or mentioned by me in certain places. Well, I ain't tellin' you what they mean but it is unique to me. If you care enough, you may figure it out yourself...

Do you use AI?

I used to use AI-generated images from 2020 to 2024 and officially renounced my public use on January 7, 2025. In April 2025, I started drawing, so I hope to use my own art in its place...one day. Until then, I make my own graphics or use free use images.For more about my feelings on AI images, feel free to read this viscerally angry vent/rant about it here.